today...

i was born 21 years ago today... Happy Birthday to me!!!
I celebrated with family and friends, so much fun!
I had to work today, but it was ok because i got to see an amazing sunrise (again at Bolsa Chica)....
this is what it looked like at 6am...
this is what i saw at 6:30 am...and this at 8:30 am...

so it was worth waking up before dawn.
tonight is going to fun!!!!

People..

it blows me away at how some people are so rude and some people are so kind. Working at the beach i come in contact with a lot of different types of people and i get very frustrated, a lot... however every once in a while i meet someone who is so kind and so understanding of situations. I thank God for people who are understanding like that, and i hope that i am one of those people when i go places.

sunrise

this morning i saw the most beautiful picture... It was a sunrise from Bolsa Chica. I was taken away by it and wished that i had my camera with me. it was a little overcast, so the sun shone through various places, i then watched as the colors transformed from a bright orange/pink to a vibrant and beautiful gold. the picture to the right is not one that i took, but those are the colors i saw. Under it was a low fog that crept through multiple oil rigs. SOOOO BEAUTIFUL! my God is so amazing to make something like that. It really took me back this morning.

Lazy

I have had 3 days of being lazy. I got back from France and didn't have to work, so i just lounged around my apartment... it was awesome...now i have to go call the jury duty people and i start work again tomorrow...my life picks up again starting at 7:30 am....

Dreams

What is a dream?

A dream is daring.

DARE to be crazy

DARE to step out

What is a dream?

A dream is ridiculous!

It doesn't make sense to OTHERS, but it makes perfect sense to YOU!

What is a dream?

A dream is ENCHANTING

What is a dream?

A dream is magical

It can take you to unimaginable places

What is a dream?

A dream is something you hold onto from your childhood...

What is a dream?

A dream is something to reach for...to STRIVE for...

HOLD ONTO YOUR CHILDHOOD DREAMS!!!
HOLD ONTO YOUR CURRENT DREAMS!!!
DREAM BIG!!! DREAM HARD!!!!

what is family?

Family is something that far too many people take for granted.
Family is a constant.
I have realized that no matter how far away you are, or how long it has been, your family will always be there for you. I have many people around me who have included me in their family and who have welcomed me with arms open wide. And i have graciously accepted the invitation. But i have again realized that even though i am a "part of their family", they still have their own family and they do things without me because i am not a part of their blood family. that was a really hard thing for me to realize so when i came to that realization, i turned to none other than my mom. My mom is the one who has been and always will be there for me.

I feel like i have taken my parents for granted and in the past couple of months, i have realized how much i love them and how much i miss them while at school. Vanguard is a very lonely place for me right now. Even though i have tons of people around me, and I have friends who care for me and love me, i am still lonely. I HATE going "home" to a dorm room with people living there who don't care about me. I want to go "home" to a HOME!!!!!! I want to be with a family. If i can't be with my family all the time, i want to be with a family who cares for me...the Sturgills.

The Sturgills are people who i know have genuenly accepted me as part of their family. I know that i can rely on them 100%. I thank YOU LORD for them. they are true blessings in my life.

Thank you Lord for my family, for my parents and my grandparents, for my cousins and my aunts and uncles. thank you for teaching me and continually teaching me the importance of them and how i need to treat them. Thank you for people you have placed in my life in Orange County who have become LIKE family; my extended family. These people are truely demonstrating what it means to be the family of Christ. Help me Lord to be reminded of my boundaries with people. Let me not over-extend my welcome in places and in people's lives. Allow me to show my thanks constantly.
I love you Lord, and I know that you have everything working for good. You have my pain and my hurt cupped in your gentle hands. YOU see my tears and YOU wipe them for me. When i am weak and feel like i can't go on, YOU are there to pick me up and carry me.
Thank you Lord!
YOU ARE AWESOME!!!