Family is something that far too many people take for granted.
Family is a constant.
I have realized that no matter how far away you are, or how long it has been, your family will always be there for you. I have many people around me who have included me in their family and who have welcomed me with arms open wide. And i have graciously accepted the invitation. But i have again realized that even though i am a "part of their family", they still have their own family and they do things without me because i am not a part of their blood family. that was a really hard thing for me to realize so when i came to that realization, i turned to none other than my mom. My mom is the one who has been and always will be there for me.
I feel like i have taken my parents for granted and in the past couple of months, i have realized how much i love them and how much i miss them while at school. Vanguard is a very lonely place for me right now. Even though i have tons of people around me, and I have friends who care for me and love me, i am still lonely. I HATE going "home" to a dorm room with people living there who don't care about me. I want to go "home" to a HOME!!!!!! I want to be with a family. If i can't be with my family all the time, i want to be with a family who cares for me...the Sturgills.
The Sturgills are people who i know have genuenly accepted me as part of their family. I know that i can rely on them 100%. I thank YOU LORD for them. they are true blessings in my life.
Thank you Lord for my family, for my parents and my grandparents, for my cousins and my aunts and uncles. thank you for teaching me and continually teaching me the importance of them and how i need to treat them. Thank you for people you have placed in my life in Orange County who have become LIKE family; my extended family. These people are truely demonstrating what it means to be the family of Christ. Help me Lord to be reminded of my boundaries with people. Let me not over-extend my welcome in places and in people's lives. Allow me to show my thanks constantly.
I love you Lord, and I know that you have everything working for good. You have my pain and my hurt cupped in your gentle hands. YOU see my tears and YOU wipe them for me. When i am weak and feel like i can't go on, YOU are there to pick me up and carry me.
Thank you Lord!
YOU ARE AWESOME!!!
