Monday, December 4, 2006

Skid Row

On Saturday morning, I went to Skid Row. Skid Row is approx. 10 blocks and within those 10 blocks approx. 8,000 people living on the sreets.

I started out going with the mentality of work...Don't get killed while stilll trying to get the picture. It is dangerous to take pictures because the people on the street don't like their pictures being taken. As we walked around, handing out lunches, the people just swarmed to us. I really didn't expect that and it was a shock really...I thought that we were going to have to go up to people and ask if they wanted lunch. We went there to do more than just handing out food. We went there to try and build relationships with some people. I have always wanted to be one who can talk to people. I hear stories of people (friends) who can go up to someone, and basically get that person's life story. I have always wanted that...however, I have found that this gift is something that is easy for some, but others have to work on it. At skid row, i realized that i am developing that in myself. I met a woman named Marie. She is 50 years old and living on Skid Row. She was oringinally from Seattle Washington, and then moved to Pheonix and Tuscon for about 20 years. She has been in L.A. for about a year and a half now. It was amazing to just sit and listen to her talk. She told me where her family is from and how she got on the streets. She then went on to talk about how she wanted to pray, and read her Bible, but she felt like there was a spiritual barrier that was stopping her. I asked her if she knew Jesus as her personal savior and she said no...so that led into a whole other conversation. God blessed me so much by going to skid row, and I am so glad that I was able to meet Marie. It breaks my heart to see all those people, who have stories, who have hearts and souls, out on the streets of Skid Row. Even though i feel this way, doesn't mean that I am going to go out and try to save everybody. I (and others) cannot feel guilty about the fact that we live in nice things and they don't. All we can do is help them out as much as possible and then of course remembering them when we petition the Lord. They need our prayers as much as our best friend does.

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

Dissapointment


So I am here in AZ visiting my sister and of course, I am alone...well sorta...my niece is here, but she is asleep right now...Anyways, I am so pissed at myself because I allowed myself to get excited again about how much time my sister and I were going to spend together, but the reality of it is that I let my hopes get to high. Out of the 4 days 5 nights that I am here, she only has 1 day off, Thanksgiving...
I know that she has to work and stuff but still, i don't think she tried hard enough to get time off.
I guess I can't be too pissed because she did say that the time that she is off, she is going to dedicate that to me and me alone...So i am happy about that. I guess i am done for now, but today was a long and boring day for me. All I did was sit around on my ass all day...i played with my niece a little, but then i watched a lot of tv and i did a little homework...
I did come to the realization that I am going to have more time to work on my homework than i thought i was going to....that is good

Monday, November 6, 2006

"THIS JOURNEY YOU ARE ON IS TOO GREAT FOR YOU TO HANDLE!"


I am reading though a book called "Live Life On Purpose." I didn't think that this book was going to affect me, but it has. The chapter I read this week is entitled: "The map is a trap". This is talking about how we as humans make maps for our lives and we struggle with following the map to the letter. God doesn't give us a step by step map, or step by step directions on how we are to live our lives. This is something that I am working through...I might have a plan for my life, but it doesn't matter because God might have a different plan (map). I am starting to get to the point where I am not wanting to make any plans for my life, and just live day by day. I don't know where to draw the line between holding onto my map and letting God be my compass. My map will change with the seasons, but the compass (God) will always be constant.

Thursday, November 2, 2006

Physical Therapy


As many know, I hurt my knee a few years ago, and i am finally getting some treatment. I went to the orthopedic surgeon, and he had me get a MRI..(which i find the results to in a few days), and he also wanted me to start PT asap, so that i can start getting a little stronger if i have to have surgery......
So the long journey of PT begins for me. I started PT today and it is going to be tough. the exercises that i have to do aren't "hard" but for someone who, like myself, is injured, they can be so draining and so hard (not to mention painful)! However, no matter how hard i feel the exercises might be, I am going to persevere because I know in the long run, it is going to help me. I know that it is what I need to do! PT is a good thing, it is making me stronger, and it is going to help me get back on my feet faster!

Friday, October 13, 2006

God is Good, all the time...all the time, God is Good


So I just wanted to take a minute to say how awesome God is. He is always faithful to me, and no matter what i am going through, HE is always there for me. God has opened up so many doors for me, and HE has been the way, the truth and the life. I love how God works through different people, and those people who do something for you, don't really know how much a small act of kidness means to me. God is gracious to me when i need it and when i don't. The times that i am so overwhelmed, are the times that he so gently hugs me. I love Him for that...He is my daddy and no matter what i am going through, HE will hold me tight...
so all i have to say is GOD IS GOOD, ALL THE TIME...ALL THE TIME, GOD IS GOOD!!!!

Sunday, October 8, 2006

Birthdays


Well, today marks anothr birthday for me. Even though I have no family around me today, I really do. I have my friends they are truly amazing, and I thank God that I have them. I thank the Lord that I am here, and that I am still alive! Even though I praise the Lord everyday, I think it is sorta cool to have my birthday fall on a Sunday because the celebration is not only about me, it is about my Lord.
Today I am going to church, but then I am going to go get a tattoo! how crazy is that? But, in all things my desire is to glorify God!

Tuesday, October 3, 2006

Be careful what you pray for


So I was reading in my journal a prayer that I wrote the day I went to the Dominican Republic. As I read through it, I was taken back to the different experiences that I had on the trip. It is amazing how God will really do what you ask him to. For example, this is from my journal: "Father stretch me in ways that i have never been stretched before so that i will have to rely on you and you alone for strength. I am going in place of my Uncle, use me in miraculous ways." What is so neat about my trip is that I was STRETCHED in ways that I had never been stretched before, and I was used in ways that I would never have imagined. God is so faithful and when HE says ask and you will recieve, He means it. Don't mess with God, if you don't really want Him to do something, then don't ask for it.

Monday, October 2, 2006

The Gift of True Friendship


The gift of true friendship is a blessing from
above. It starts out unknowingly then
blossoms without a doubt.

The gift of true friendship cannot be bought
or sold, it develops and over time just watch
the beauty unfold.

The gift of true friendship has value beyond
compare, especially when it touches the
hearts of those whom we hold dear.

The gift of true friendship is a priceless
treasure, which brings with it much joy, and
laughter along with endless pleasure.

The gift of true friendship is to be
acknowledged while here on earth, because
without it what would life be worth.

To the few who are my true friends: THANK YOU.

Friday, September 29, 2006

Trust?


Sometimes I wonder why it is so hard to trust in God. I know He would never do anything to hurt me, yet I still don't always trust. As I sit here waiting, I am thinking about a bunch of stuff, and one person I am thinking about is my best bud Caleb Dominguez. He is one of the most amazing people I know, and I am so blessed to have him in my life. Unfortunately right now he is battling Leukemia. THIS SUCKS! There are so many times I ask God, "Why is Caleb having to go through this?" All he desires to do is serve the Lord, and yet his has this horrible disease. I just got done watching a video about Caleb on his website:Why is it so hard to trust in the Lord? I know that He has everything in control and He would (http://www.calebsmountain.org) And when it was finished, God told me...Stacee you don't need to know why Caleb is going through this. All you need to do is trust me.
Caleb is serving God to the best of his ability right now. Even in the past 3 weeks that he has been in the hospital, he has been a blessing and a witness to those who are helping him out. He is constantly in the word, and constantly talking to people about his faith. It seems like Caleb has more trust in God with this situation right now than I do, AND IT IS HAPPENING TO HIM!
I know that God has a plan and purpose for everything, but right now I am struggling with trusting Him with it.
I thank the Lord and pray daily for Caleb. I know that God will see us all through this valley.

Thursday, September 28, 2006

Boundaries



They are such an important thing to have in life. Boudaries keep bad things out, but they also help prevent us from getting ourselves into things we shouldn't. God and I have been working a lot lately on what my boundaries are. The thing I have found is that even though it takes me a while to realize it, and I don't always like it at first, God's boundaries are seriously way better for me than mine are. God really does have my best interest at heart.


There is so much freedom associated with saying no to something that is outside of your boundaries.

I am only human and can only do so much. This is where I need to trust in God and know that, if i am within my boundaries, He will carry me through the times when I am feelilng like I can no longer do it.

God has been gracious to me in this all this week...

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

Impact


I recieved two different emails today that impacted me.
The first one was from a long time friend, and she basically asked me if she was still my friend. I don't know why she would ask that, but it made me think about how much time I have put into our friendship. I just got very confused and i wondered if I had made any impact on her life...
The second one I got was from my little cousin and she explained a situation that she was in and then she asked for my advice. I really didn't realize, until that moment, that people look up to me. I have never thought of myself as one to be looked up to, but i guess I am. In that moment I realized that I have a responsibility to live a life worth emulating. Weather I want it or not, I have the ability to IMPACT someones life. That is a scary thought, I just hope that I can live up to whatever standard people are setting for me...

Monday, September 18, 2006

Fears

So I was filling out this quiz thing online to see how much I have changed in 3 years. As I was, i came across a question that said: "What is your biggest fear?" 3 years ago, my biggest fear was failure. I was scared stiff of failing. I didn't want to let my family or friends down at all. Now, because of different people in my life, that poured into me, I realized that it is ok to fail. Failure is what makes us stronger. I thank God that He has given us the ability to fail at things, because that way we need to go to Him for success. Sweet!